On Being Bound by Blood

I cannot see anything including myself.

How do I locate myself.

I am told an assault is but a trivial matter.
"a violent physical or verbal attack"

I cannot believe what is not real to others,
I need them to believe what is real so I can validate reality.

How do I find me if I am not believed to exist.

I am told an assault does not render trauma.
"a concerted effort"

I do not place my trust where it is not safe.

I am asked why the victim of an assault does not immediately dial 911 to report her victimization.
"as to reach a goal or defeat an adversary"

How do I locate myself.

I am asked why the victim of an assault does not immediately buy Plan B the next day if it is necessary.
"a threat or attempt to inflict offensive physical contact or bodily harm on a person"

I cannot perpetuate a lie.

How do I locate myself.

I am behind the wheel of a large vehicle on the highway and find myself surprised.
"as by lifting a fist in a threatening manner"

I am suppressing myself as I find myself shouting.
"puts the person in immediate danger of or in apprehension of such harm or contact"

How do I locate myself.

I am not moving my head as I find myself crying.
"compare to: BATTERY"

I am distressed that I find myself a victim behind the wheel of this car.
"attack or bombard someone or the senses with something undesirable or unpleasant"

How do I tell someone their logic is unsafe.

I am still suppressing myself as I find myself explaining what is trauma.
"an act that threatens physical harm to a person, whether or not actual harm is done"

I need them to believe what is real so I can validate myself.

I am still shouting as I find myself unheard, unbelieved, unassumed to be a victim.
"a concerted effort to do something demanding"

How do I locate myself.