On a Cleanse of Reason

I am crying so I take a shower.

I have my period so I am bleeding.

(Am I crying because I have my period?)

I put a hand to my face because I am crying.

(Do I put a hand to my face because I am showering?)

When I look back at my hand, it is covered in blood.

I do not know why.

I do not know why my face is bleeding, or where this blood is coming from.

I do not know why the blood is all over my hand, instead of washing off with the shower.

Why am I bleeding from my face?

(Do I not know why I am bleeding because I feel no pain?)

The lights are off, but I can still see how bright the red is in the dim of the moon.

The shower is hot, but I can still see how bright the red is in the steam from the heat.

I am no longer crying but I am still bleeding.

(Is it that I am feeling no pain or that I am not feeling pain?)

I am no longer showering but I am still bleeding.

(Is a feeling the absence of feeling its contrary?)